hmm so the past few days have been eventful - so let's elucidate the whys and hows of the moodiness/confusion. no more cryptic.

basically, last week i was directing dramafeste and now i'm not. entirely through my own choice, and i'm not bitter but actually happy. not to say it didn't begin with an emotional trauma-of-sorts, but the issues that were the root of the actual trauma have been resolved and all conspiracy theories shattered. the change of structure made little sense and i couldn't be part of a production that made me feel redundant, and i decided to pull out. but then things got sorted and there was a decision to return to the original structure of sorts, but it occurred to me today that i don't want to go back to that either, because the fact that the entire thing had happened can't be erased and there'll always be a twinge of remaining self-doubt but more than that, i realised that the prospect of all that freed-up time is irresistable =)

no hard feelings, and no burnt bridges, and hadri is saved from having to make a torturous decision. so here we are.

nus thing this morning was really stupid and boring, but a perfect excuse to abscond to town instead of to school. so nasty and i watched the aviator, which is terribly intense and long. but well-directed, although not my type of film. and it definitely could have been edited down some, but i was very surprised by leonardo dicaprio's calibre! i mean, of course at one point of my life some would remember that i would've sworn he was the best actor on earth, but in recent years that definitely hasn't been my opinion. yet he's pretty damn fantastic in the aviator. he was good in catch me if you can, but this was pretty near astounding. unfortunately, the neurosis of the whole thing freaked me out quite a bit. i guess martin scorcese is really not my type of director. too freakily intense.

but now i have to watch finding neverland, alfie, closer, etc etc. all the good movies coming out now. damnnn i wish i could watch kinsey though. i can't even ask my mum to take me because it'd be so weird watching kinsey with her. anyway i don't think they'd allow me in even if my mum did take me.

after that... met soph and yong hui again, who declined to watch the movie - a good move on their part, i think. atleast soph i know would definitely have been squirming less than an hour into it. so we hung around borders and bought stickers and badges, and then to sembawang where i acquired the OC Mix 2 for 6 bucks less than in Borders, but then made up for it with a 19-dollar purchase of the Before Sunrise/Sunset soundtrack. nasty and i have concluded that i singlehandedly raise the national income of singapore. certainly my parents' income is not as happy about it, however.

i like the OC. i think i shall just buy the OC mix 1 again. it was too good not to own, unless i manage to download all of the stuff again. which is tiring. and i still can't find rufus wainwright's want two! crazyyy.

ohohoh! rufus wainwright did the first song in the aviator. and richard gilmore (as in the actor who plays him on gg - whose name i am unable to remember now) was in it for a brief bit. and jude law was also in it! cate blanchett was also fabulous and kate beckinsale as ava gardner is just the most perfect thing ever. pretty amazing cast. i guess all in all it was a pretty powerful cinematic experience. just could've been a bit shorter. 3 hours kills anybody unless it's a hindi movie.

anyway i am happy now.