memoirs of a diva

you know what!!! i was told today that my eyebrows are eloquent - when they're not being clumsy. (because that sort of hopefully jocular insulting afterthought is regular fare in shoojspeak, but that's not the point.)

the point is, i THEN realised that i emote A LOT with my eyebrows! just now even on msn, i realised that i'm always wiggling my eyebrows. not in a suggestive way, because wiggling eyebrows suggestively to self is plain psychotic, but you know.. lifting one eyebrow or raising my eyebrows or frowning or doing various other eyebrow-move-y things.

and sometimes i lift one eyebrow just for the hell of it, subconsciously. like, for no reason. i've only just become more conscious of my eyebrows and HOW MUCH THEY MOVE.

i worry that if i move my eyebrows around so much, i'll get eyebrow wrinkles or eyebrow lines or whatever, by the time i'm forty! i need to stop them. shooj and i were discussing the benefits of pressing down on my eyebrows with my hands all the time so i don't move. the social repercussions might be bad, which he as usual was compelled to do an exaggerated demonstration of. that is, some retarded person introducing self, with hands pressing down on eyebrows in most retarded fashion. so that idea was immediately trashed.

so i'm still thinking of eyebrow-saving ideas. help, anyone?

and the strange boy's just gotten addicted to gofugyourself. which is really a daily must-read for all those in need of fashion-related laughs, which is so me.

andddd i have really awful luck with booksales. again not free, but today i acquired middlesex by proxy, for $5. and i tried to give bookfinding instructions over the phone, but kelly hated all the books and shoojee sounded distracted by all the books, so ugh. but it's ok, atleast i have middlesex and i really shouldn't keep buying books considering how little time i have to read.

maybe if i didn't watch so much tv. in the afternoon today all i did was watch gg followed by alias and then read things on the internet, related to gg and alias. both had very very cool eps this week and i can't wait for the next ones! i loooove logan, he's terribly terribly hot. and vaughn too, although there was less of hot!vaughn in the ep than i was led to believe by shooj. it was far more of dixon, which is cool but not as hot as vaughn. duh, cos cool's not hot. hurhurhur.

aparna, Friday, April 29, 2005

Handwriting analysis which i find rather inaccurate.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Aparna has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Aparna fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Aparna has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Aparna just comes into someone's home and helps herself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Aparna finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when she was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.

Aparna has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Aparna is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Aparna is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Aparna basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

In reference to Aparna's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Aparna slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Aparna can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Aparna will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

Aparna uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Aparna does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise. Aparna will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally. Aparna is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Aparna doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.