i hate to admit it, but alias is getting slightly irritating and cheesy. i hate the anviliciousness of the gibson-grace bonding. and i hate the overt girl-powerness of "rachel, c'mon you can do it!" it's so obviously NOT sydney and vaughn, and it's just really really obvious that they're trying to create relationships and characters that people will like, so that when jen garner leaves the show next year they can continue with these characters, or do a spinoff or something. but they're trying too hard and there's something very grating about rachel gibson's voice and face. and it's painful that basically we're down to sydney, marshall, jack, sloane. from the original bunch. and while ron rifkin is as fantastic an actor as he's ever been, i'm getting sick of his double-crossing. though it's his New Purpose in Life and stuff. but... whatever. the entire gordon dean thing sort of pisses me off. and the kelly peyton character's pretty but she has SUCH a slut voice. and i can't believe jack is SO GULLIBLE. plus there've been no really good jack scenes so far. thomas grace was very promising - he still is - but there isn't nearly enough of him. i can't believe i'm saying this, but they should just turn alias male-centric and make him the main character or something. i don't like rachel very much. the way she permanently looks like she's been crying. and the way she's soooo blonde. the way her legs go on forever but she has no charisma when she's playing an alias, unlike sydney.

and the end bit, with vaughn's voice playing into her tummy. was sweet i guess. but the whole time i was just thinking that a) i bet jen garner went home after that and had ben talk to her tummy for four hours to get rid of the Evil Voice of the Ex-Boyfriend aura around poor affleck baby. b) I'M SO ANNOYED THAT VAUGHN IS DEAD AND DO THEY HAVE TO KEEP REMINDING ME?!?!?!?!?!??!

yeah. i wasn't actually so annoyed about him being dead until sydney kept mentioning him every five minutes. i mean i was annoyed earlier when i found out he was going to be killed, but by the time they actually killed him i didn't really care much. but now the show's gone totally bland. like that totally random scene in the rocking-chair store, where she Looks Wistfully at some totally random kid and her dad. it was just... totally random and annoying.

I WANT MY OLD ALIAS BACK.

*SOBS*
(dramatically like every supremely female drama queen blogger alive)

the latest Lost episode was disappointing too. although maybe that was because i knew exactly what was coming. but the 'i love you' was a little unconvincing. maybe also because sawyer was unconscious through half the episode, charlie was being a prick and jack, kate and hurley weren't in the episode. so it was sayid-shannon --- i thought i could relate to shannon but she was a bit of a drama queen and i somehow couldn't care very much about her angst. maybe if they'd focused more on the relationship with her dad it would've made some sense. then the tailaways. of whom mistereko is really cool and sort of hot (haha), ana-lucia has a huge stick up her ass, and libby looks like such a wimp. ok yeah i have trouble getting used to new characters :/

gg's still good. atleast the *cough* is sort of endearing and reminds me of R's sister. but she looks different now. R's sister, i mean.

which reminds me, the past two nights i've had really strange dreams involving one of my cousins. not the adorable new york cousins; the singapore cousins whom, ironically, i meet the least often. ok not really because i don't see the new york cousins very often either but atleast we make an effort to visit or to have them visit. the singapore cousins on the other hand, we only meet if we run into them somewhere at a party. or like when i was out with kitson a few months ago and saw them in cine and hoped they didn't see me. anyway but when my dad's parents were alive we used to meet quite often i think. and the younger of the two cousins was quite cute. and in the dream she looked the way she did about 5 years ago. she looks totally different now. i was feeling a bit nostalgic in the morning after i woke up, heh. though i was never really close to either of them. i'm nevertheless very puzzled by the fact that two consecutive nights i've had vivid dreams featuring her.

one was on some kind of... ship or something. well it was something floating on a sea, it may have been a house floating on the sea. and. uh. R was there. gee selective abbreviation-ing. haha. R was there, and his sister was probably there, there were the other usual people. it was strange. and then last night was sort of backstage at some sort of concert. and there were all the usual people too. and the concert hall was sort of... makeshift. like the floor was made of something that wasn't much steadier than cardboard. so that when you walked up and down the whole floor shook. maybe that's because in the sports halls when the invigilators walk up and down, when they walk past you the floor sinks a little. and for some reason, after taking one exam in the sports hall that feeling stuck with me? i don't know. it was a beyond-strange dream. both were, in fact.

so. gg. is a good show. logan's a prick, though. but finn and colin are cute as ever. i'm annoyed with myself that i'm so utterly spoiled for the show, so i'm trying to keep self off spoiler boards. today's ep was brilliant at the end. although also a little... anvilicious about the secrets thing. whatever.

argh i hope the OC this week is good. that's one show where the weirdness is made up for by the cuteness of adam brody and rachel bilson. now there's a couple with REAL chemistry. i hope they never break up. in real life and on the show. -touches wood-

and i hope there's a good Lost ep this week. i think there's no more gg till JANUARY.

withdrawal symptoms will kick in shortly.

ok am seriously in Angsty Mood when not even my tv shows can cheer me up.

history. fuck.