look at title. that depresses me. ben affleck and jennifer garner -> ouch. i am also disillusioned about michael vartan, and i guess the attraction is in the characters for everyone. except jennifer garner, who is wonderfully sweet and victor garber as well who is terribly loveable.

and! i have cleared out my wardrobe and hung a lot of things up. i need to throw clothes away. i'm throwing some, and then i'm keeping a pile of nice clothes that don't fit me which i can't bear to throw and have (futile, perhaps) hopes of one day losing enough weight to fit into those again. or something like that. just irrational hoarding of possessions, a trait of mine. along with carrying of entertainment paraphernelia wherever i go, making me vulnerable to extreme losses upon theft. am working on remedying the latter. former isn't killing me yet.

took the political compass thing. i'm close to the middle, but about quarterway liberal leftist.
economic left/right: -3.25
social libertarian/authoritarian: -2.00
that puts me in about the same place as nelson mandela and beethoven and david cobb and ralph nader. too bad the last two are out of the election. same area as the dalai lama and gandhi as well, although i just read that gandhi was fiercely anti-jew and disowned his son for wanting to get married because he himself believed in renouncing sex, which is disturbing. and how he produced a son by renouncing sex i do not know. perhaps after the act, he decided to renounce it or something. hahahhaha. poor woman.

oh reminds me - today vivien called gandhi 'mohammed gandhi'. wow.

some interesting random facts:

marquis de sade
n : French soldier and writer whose descriptions of sexual perversion gave rise to the term `sadism' (1740-1814)

Ro·si·cru·cian
A member of an international organization, especially the Ancient Mystic Order Rosae Crucis and the Rosicrucian Order, devoted to the study of ancient mystical, philosophical, and religious doctrines and concerned with the application of these doctrines to modern life.
A member of any of several secret organizations or orders of the 17th and 18th centuries concerned with the study of religious mysticism and professing esoteric religious beliefs.
The name is probably due to a German theologian, Johann Valentin Andre["a], who in anonymous pamphlets called himself a knight of the Rose Cross (G. Rosenkreuz), using a seal with a St. Andrew's cross and four roses.)] One who, in the 17th century and the early part of the 18th, claimed to belong to a secret society of philosophers deeply versed in the secrets of nature, -- the alleged society having existed, it was stated, several hundred years.
Note: The Rosicrucians also called brothers of the Rosy Cross, Rosy-cross Knights, Rosy-cross philosophers, etc. Among other pretensions, they claimed to be able to transmute metals, to prolong life, to know what is passing in distant places, and to discover the most hidden things by the application of the Cabala and science of numbers.

there were other things i intended to look up but can't be bothered right now. i need to buy 'holy blood and holy grail' by baigent, leigh and lincoln. they were the first english-speaking people to write about the priory of sion, although the priory is somewhat less significant than the da vinci code makes it out to be. i need to finish reading the templar revelation.
actually, i think i need to sleep now. night!