today's been a complete nightmare. [please god, tell that i'm still asleep.]
i feel like goddamn silas marner. lost faith in mankind.
today i left my bag alone for about ten of fifteen minutes in the singapore poly auditorium and i came back and the bag was gone. i panicked, ran around looking for it, and finally found it in a corner somewhere. i was thankful. then i open the bag and realise that my phone, discman and money are gone.

i'm fucking furious. and disgusted. this thief took half a sandwich and left (very thoughtfully, might i add) the red case in which i keep my discman. fine, so it's a fairly ugly red case, but now it's a reminder that the discman's gone. and with it my OC cd. but i'm mildly thankful that he atleast left the rest of it behind, because my pencilcase has sentimental value and the bag and pens and make-up are hard to replace, as well as worth quite a substantial amount considering the number of pens and make-up items i have.

my parents were incredibly angry, of course. and for some reason, until i found the bag i was relatively calm, but once i found it and then discovered taht the valuables were gone i almost started crying, i guess the temporary joy of finding plus the frustration became quite a potent combination.

ok so i was stupid. i shouldn't have left my bag alone, come to think of it, it was completely a thoughtless thing to do.
it's a free concert so any random poly loser could've walked in.
and it's fine arts, so people have no regard for theatre etiquette, in fact it doesn't exist, so people are always walking in ant out. in fact, even the house lights are always pertially on to facilitate the walking in and out.

so now i've had a good cry finally, and i realise a bit belatedlythat there are disgustingly bad elements in singapore. and i will never leave anything alone for even two seconds again. and i have no phone, no discman and no glasses until further notice. i wonder what old phone my mom's going to saddle on me next time. i think thetre are some ancient motorolas lying around.

and my dad's saying maybe i'm not ready to live on my own in university. they won't deny me university in the US, and anyway i have two years to sort the irresponsibility issue out, but my mom was saying that i can't go to pondicherry because the fact that i've been going around losing everything means that i'm not ready for things like that. phone, glasses, bag. plus the bunch of times i've dropped my phone in places but fortunately been able to retrieve it. i wonder if i can convince her about pondicherry.

THANK GOD i didn't take my camera. and that i didn't take a rufus cd or something else instead of OC. OC was a really good cd but rufus stolen and i'd have died. as it is my john mayer's pretty much been stolen out from under my nose. (read: NASTY.)
anyway i've taken out my contacts and am now peering at the screen, so i'm going to for once take my mom's advice and go to bed.