oh man i just got struck by a terrible case of Ennui. had a rummage through my memory boxes - esp the drama box, in search of Dfest2004 program, and then i had a rummage through my England2004 box because it was on top of the drama box. and then i was reminiscing about england with nasty, and reminiscing about IFeelLikeChickenTonight and everything and how fantastic last year was and how comparatively shitty this year's been so far and i felt so SAD. especially because i was listening to this really really melancholy song called Home by Azure Ray. very very sad. but then just as i started writing this song Sublime by The Supreme Beings of Leisure came on the playlist, and that's funky and made me happy again. but now it's Everybody's Gotta Learn Sometime by Beck which is a fantastic song but soooo melancholy.

So I have ennui.

I want to watch Eternal Sunshine again. brilliant brilliant brilliant movie. and I love the Pope poem - it was so funny on tuesday morning when purvis came into class and started talking about Eloise and Abelard and just the previous night i'd printed out "eloisa to abelard" which is the poem by alexander pope from which "eternal sunshine of the spotless mind" comes. very long, very lovely poem.

it's such an interesting remark, that Eustacia would sit between the Cleopatras and the Heloises. such a mixture of majesty and innocence and controversy and lust and legend and power and beauty and ill-fated romance. thomas hardy is a geniusgeniusgenius.

haha you know in the latest gg ep, at the end right before logan climbs in rory's window and has his way with her, she's reading "A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius". uhm ok that was just a random thing, since we were (i was) talking about genius.

I'm bored today. two relatively detailed posts in one day. i need to find something to do with my life. worry not, the coming week will be fun and busy! and there are the damned block tests to begin worrying about.

oh and i've sort of found my voice! but at this moment i'm coughing a LOT. and sigh i thought i was lunching at rang mahal tomorrow (rolly likes it too, innit cool!) but my maid's leaving tomorrow so we can't go, or something like that. my mother often fails to make sense. my new maid cooks much better, yay. ughhh i thought tomorrow we could go out for lunch and then i could drag my mom to the ysl store or the dior store to make her finally buy one of the bags because i want to borrow!!! and i could get a new watch although i totally cannot decide if i really want the white dkny watch because i really shouldn't get something white for a watch i'll wear regularly. but the black one i liked was rather fat. ugh maybe i shall have to look somewhere else. IF i'm going out tomorrowwww.

yay i finally feel tired, i'm going to sleep now. would you believe i've just been up all this while feeling bored because i was waiting to feel tired, after the copious amounts of sleep i got today. nice change from the rest of the week though. the only good sleep was wednesday morning which wasn't really good either because of the fever etc.

what a stupidly long post.