i've been having nice conversations with people i haven't talked to in a long time and i'm soooooooo desperate for As to be over.

last night -- talking to blee about Rent etc -- i cannot WAIT for Rent. it runs from 22nd nov - 4th dec. if we go (and we must go!!) it will be between the 30th and the 4th because we end on the 29th and blee's not free on the 29th. tickets from 60-148. i want Good Seats. karen mok's in it, i've never seen her in anything but apparently she's a v good actress. the rest of the cast/crew mostly the original broadway people which is definitely good. leave me a comment if you want to come with. someone or other will be booking tickets soon. or maybe we'll just wait till the stupid exams end and take our chances. because expensive tickets therefore i can't see my parents being very enthusiastic about credit carding before getting the money from everyone.

and then talking to kitson just now about plans for when he'll be back in december -- Lost marathon so that he can have another show to get hooked on. he's finished watching the whole of SATC recently and he feels very sad because he's got nothing left to watch. so cute. and i feel his pain. i have to wait for my alias dose weekly, and gg and lost are on hiatus for a couple of weeks so i'm totally in withdrawal. but there's OC this week, after a really Long hiatus. maybe that'll be interesting but it isn't half as good as the other shows. tv is a serious drug! tv addiction, tv junkie. all drug-related terminology. this christmas might be kitty's last time back because his mom's moving to the UK next year! i feel v sad.

i think one of the scariest thoughts is that i might lose touch with everyone after JC. everyone will go off to various places. i really hope i don't lose touch. though i realised somehow it's easier to lose touch with people you're really close to. atleast in my experience. because you depend so much on their physical presence. i think. don't know. might be different this time. i really hope i keep in touch. considering that i get so absorbed in my own life most of the time, and i'm so bad at writing letters and stuff. i reply to emails though. i'm good at replying to emails and smses and technological things. and there's msn. atleast in universities they don't ban msn. yay there is hope. oh and there's my blog for people who want to keep up with my regular madness. i hope university isn't so fun/so boring that i stop blogging.

i've sort of missed human company this past week. self-imposed exile from the world. it hasn't exactly been productive. ah whateverrrr.

:( 30 days till As are over. 30 days till there is no more official reason to wear the RJ uniform. or any uniform for that matter. unless i become a factory worker, god forbid. 30 days till end of school life. 30 days to freedom, but it feels slightly sad at the same time. was talking to chit the other day about all the things we said we'd do but never did. and i keep thinking - hey there's 8 months to do everything! but i have a scary feeling i'll spend those 8 months sleeping. or even if i don't, those 8 months won't be enough. i feel very very old. like i'm going to die without fulfilling any of my ambitions.

time to sleep.


and i'm going to try to make this my last post until the As end. but don't forget to check back, because as you probably are aware --- me and my willpower: not the best of friends.