yup i got the second cousin to come for lysis! that brings my ticket-selling count to atleast 6 definites, of people who would only buy from me. and i will send the mail to my sec 4 class. and i'm going to sell to about 3 or 4 other friends of mine, although i am saddened to learn that one who's here on vacation from university, is going to japan on wednesday so can't make it. but nevermind, another 3 or 4. and my mum's going to publicise tomorrow, when she and my dad go to the indian high commission to see the indian flag being raised for independence day. ok i think i'm making it out to sound quite ridiculous, but my parents are very patriotic. so is my brother, actually, although i see no reason for him to be. like me he's never lived in india. i guess there is a connection in the sense that even i do root for india in most things, more so than i would root for singapore really. but my nationalistic loyalties don't really lie with either country. product of being a displaced citizen, perhaps. anyway there'll be lots of indians there tomorrow, being patriotic, and my dad wants me and my brother to go, but i think i'll plead sleepiness. anyway my mum says that we'll delay them if they try and take us along, so hopefully i'll escape it. i wouldn't mind going if it was later in the day, but anything that requires me to wake up at 8 on a sunday morning can go to hell. anyway my parents have lots of very patriotic friends. i guess that's the case with expats. i can't really understand patriotism. i've never really felt it, although of late i figure singapore -is- where i belong and this -is- home, truly. but it'll never be a sentimental thing, and i'm still getting out of here as soon as i can, because i need to see bigger places. i might end up coming back at some point. coming back home? i don't know.. who knows where home might be. but whatever it is, right now i'm bored with singapore. maybe i'll just go and see the world, and then i'll be happy to come back. but right now my dream is to travel around europe and live wherever i like whenever i like and do whatever i like. it's a very generic sort of dream, i guess. but i'm annoyed with having lived nowhere but singapore in my whole life. travelling doesn't really do the trick. i don't know what it's like to live anywhere but in singapore.

ok long paragraphs bad. moving on, i was talking about something. i need to promote more heavily to friends. i shall do so. and now, to bed. i am so tired.