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in other news, my gp's still not done. i'm experiencing incredible inertia over this one. but then this blog is practically the diary of my inertia, so.. whatever. ugh. must.get.started.on.gp. rathi ho's been terribly nice about this - i must stop testing her patience.

and the school admin disgust me. and right now not even bnl can soothe my mood. am very annoyed with anything and my back really hurts. and i should read time magazine more often - it's interesting. although i'm getting depressed because of this emphatic new impression that the media are all just out to scare everyone, what with the global warming compre, and michael moore and stuff. so i'm not sure whether or not to be terribly concerned about aids in china, the drought and floods in the indian subcontinent, the traffic problems in asia and how soon traffic accidents will be the greatest cause of death, as if drought and famine and flood aren't enough. and there's the environmental problem along with all of it, so after we slowly drop off from traffic and aids and flood and drought, the earth will die and swallow whole whoever still remains. or something like that. and there's also the odd article about the reality-tv epidemic. how incongruous. maybe that's the next new earthly danger. sheesh.

i was thinking today about how singapore is such a weird sort of utopia. screwed up, but i wouldn't venture so far as dystopia. for instance, taiwan has the toughest gun control laws in the world, apparently, and yet their underworld apparently operates around money and firepower. and in singapore thoughts of underworld organised crime and guns don't even occur to us. atleast not to me. i never imagine such things existing in singapore. owning a gun is a concept that is completely foreign to me. i think it is to most singaporeans, and i'm pretty sure most people don't consider or even think about it. is it just that if these things happen or exist in singapore, they're completely masked, or that this society is just so abnormally safe and... sterilised? i can't quite decide if this should be, in fact, a sort of utopia. is utopia a place where you'd like to raise your children?