uggghhhhhh i have been struck with the wanderlust again!

halfway through alfie dvd and my uncle calls from newyork, adds to the family reminders about mugging my 18th year away - actually 19th i suppose, whatever. mugging this year away, essentially. then i was talking to my adorable 5yearold cousin and she was telling me how it was snowing outside and she caught a cold because she was playing in the snow, and there was a blizzard a few days ago and how it's nice and warm inside and stuff and damnnnn i've never been in a snowed-in place and i wantttt. i've only ever seen newyork in june and december, which are both the most utterly boring months. i've never seen autumn, or the one time i was in the US in september i was really small and i don't remember and anyway it was california which isn't hit with such extremities of seasons.

gahh. i need to go somewhere.

and then my uncle annoyed me by telling me i should be a rich doctor because i did a biology SAT and did decently on it. i am so sick of indian family people telling me how to run my life. they'd probably balk if i decided i wanted to take a year off after As, although i don't really since i'll already have 8 months, but taking a year and stewardessing is pretty attractive because after a few months you get free rides to paris and london and free hotel stay, and you can just spend the money you earn becasue you won't even need a place to stay most of the time. although it can be tiring, people say that they literally walk from singapore to london or wherever, which is true. but then you get to pamper yourself in london for a few days, which can't be all that hard. and you get a free etiquette course and all that stuff. esp on singapore airlines - they really treat you well, apparently. damnn i should shut up, i'm just persuading myself.

and he says all these things and i don't know if he's kidding or serious but they annoy me. but he's my favourite uncle anyway. possibly because i have no relationship with any of my other uncles. given that family are annoying quite often, i don't know if i wish i had more of a close-knit extended family or not. atleast my grandparents are really nice, but again the traditional indian values. my uncle has lived in the united states since he was 16 and in some ways it seems to only have turned him more indian.

i'm tired of having my blog potentially used against me. i'm just going to shut up and only blog about stupid mindless things. i wish i could read minds. and i wish my brother would be less of a pest.