i think i might be losing my mind. i keep thinking "i'm so bored." but i don't want to whine that i'm bored because i realised this afternoon that it's horrible to hear people whining about being bored.

and. would anyone like to go to the circus? two people are needed to go with soph and me.

i cannot remember what i was going to say. i may not have had anything to say. blogging is boring.

yesterday was fun. i love saif ali khan. he's hot. so's preity zinta. her dimples are even more fantastic than jen garner's. but the movie (salaam namaste) should learn to do a proper prosthetic belly. they should watch more Friends, perhaps. it was real enough, i suppose, but a little bit too low and huge especially for someone as tiny as preity zinta.

yikes i just received an email from oxford saying thank you for my application and that they'll be in touch shortly about my interview. now i've got another fantastic Event to look forward to, besides the returning of prelim papers and, well, A levels. oh and then there'll be the PPE test after that. life is a whole lot of horribleness.

i spent all day clearing my room. it's dust-free now. i should really vacuum more often because my maid only sweeps/vacuums/mops the floor and anyway there are lots of things on my floor that she evidently doesn't bother to move and sweep behind. not that i expect her to, considering they're such thick stacks of paper/piles of boxes/chests of drawers etc. so i backbreakingly vacuumed for about four hours. and then i tried to sort out all the stacks of paper. i haven't finished yet. well, i've sorted out the stacks into more organised stacks but now all the stacks are on the floor and i don't know what to do with them. i still need to sort out and throw more stuff away because i just basically sorted all my stuff out according to subject/topic/whatever, and then i added jireh's stuff to those stacks. but then a lot of jireh's stuff is stuff i already have, so i need to figure out what i already have and what i didn't have, and what i'm actually likely to read. and then i need to figure out if i'm going to throw out the duplicate copies or if jireh wants his stuff back and therefore i should keep them safe somewhere. and the main issue is WHERE.

ok i feel a bit better now, because atleast i know what the problems are, regarding operation clean-up. atleast i'm no longer going to be sitting on my floor surrounded by stacks of paper and looking/feeling/being utterly confused. now i can sit on the floor and have Problems to find Solutions for.

dear god i've spent more than 12 hours on this. atleast i'm bored.

i think i'll just go stack everything up into one giant pile and go to bed.

before that, a couple of quizzy things.

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o1. Honestly, where are you at?
in my room

o2. Honestly, what's on your mind?
nothing, really. besides i'mboredi'mboredi'mboredandalittlebitannoyed.

o3. Honestly, who do you chat with when you are online?
k, n, s, c. usually.

o4. Honestly, what is it that you REALLY should be doing right now?
going to sleep or clearing the stacks of paper.

o5. Honestly, have you brushed your teeth today?
yes!

o6. Honestly, are you a good friend?
yes :)

o7. Honestly, do you really think going to school is all that important?
in the grand scheme of things, no. it's just a conveyor belt.

o8. Honestly, what are your dreams about mostly?
i've lately had very kelly-filled dreams. in the last two nights i've had two dreams about kelly and some sort of adventure on the sea. the first one also had nasty. hopefully tonight there'll be neither of them.

o9. Honestly, what are you so happy about right now?
i'm not happy! not really. i'm glad prelims are over, but there isn't anything particularly exciting to look forward to. this is a bad question to answer when in a state of ennui such as i am right now, because i can give you a long list of why i'm NOT happy.

1o. Honestly, what are you so sad about right now?
- EVERYTHING. mainly the stacks of paper on the floor and the lack of excitingness in my life.

11. Honestly, how old are you now?
18.

12. Honestly, who are you missing?
my imaginary hunk boyfriend who is standing behind me giving me a fantastic massage.

13. Honestly, have you ever stole something?
stoleN jeez. i hate bad english. and yeah i've stolen stuff, i think. i'm sure i must have. can't remember. i've got a bunch of borrowed things that i haven't returned, mainly books, does that count?

14. Honestly, what song are you listening to right now?
why georgia, john mayer! am trying to feel happy. john mayer makes me happy.

15. Honestly, who do you want to meet at this very moment?
a very hot guy who meets all expectations.

16. Honestly, where do you like to be kissed?
eeeeeeeverywhere. hahahaa.

17. Honestly, do you like/love someone right now?
i wish i did. even if i wasn't liked/loved back. liking someone is more exciting than not liking anyone and not even having anyone i might consider starting to like/love.

18. Honestly, do you hate someone right now?
hate is too energetic an emotion.

19. Honestly, who do you wanna hug right now?
i am hugging my big dog and feeling glum. i want to hug my cousin because nasty is telling me about her little cousin lucas and he sounds cute and i want my cousin NOW.

2o. Honestly, are you bored?
HAHAHAHAHA need i even answer that question???

21. Honestly, who do you wanna slap right now?
nobody. again, too much energy. sorry i'm being boring aren't i? but even if i did want to slap someone, i wouldn't say it on my blog. because i rarely want to slap people unless i really hate them, and i rarely really hate people so um i hope that answered the question.

22. Honestly, have you answered all the questions above honestly?
yeah i think so.

1- Last name: aiyar
2- Last birthday: the 8th of april 2005? what kinda question's that.
3- Last hair cut: the first monday after june commons :)
4- Last pierce/tattoo: last had my ears pierced when i was a baby.
5- Last cry: can't remember. haven't cried in a while, yay! oh i almost cried a while ago while watching my mom's hindi soap opera with her. i'm So Embarrassed that i almost cried over a hindi soap opera.
6- Last swear: can't remember. it's not enough of an event to remember. but i haven't really spoken much today
7- Last song listened: why georgia.
8- Last watched TV show: my mom's hindi soap -- astitva on zee tv.
9- Last website: people.com
10- Last yell: um i yelled something to my mom earlier? not cos i was angry, just because she was at the other end of the house.
11- Last movie: salaam namaste yesterday with claud and kelly!
12- Last outing: salaam namaste
13- Last missed call: nasty, yesterday evening.
14- Last received call: sushma
15- Last dialled call: nasty
16- Last sms sent: soph
17- Last sms received: soph
18- Last bath: this afternoon after i finished vacuuming.
19- Last time involved in fist fighting: i have never Fist Fought.
20- Last clubbing place: haven't clubbed. am unexciting!
22- Last achievement: feeling good about the math paper.
23- Last smile: a few minutes ago, when nasty said "wokay". it's very clown-y and cute.
24- Last time u scold your boss: don't have a boss. i sort of scolded mr sowden over email for being evil, does that count?
25- Last laughing hard: this evening on phone with sushma and nasty
26- Last time that you fall sick: fell sick. ugh okay Accept the Singlish. uhh sometime around national day, had bad cold and slight fever.
27- Last exercise: does vacuuming count? last run was two saturdays ago with kel. must go to gym tomorrow.
28- Last time u had a crush(es): last year :( FIND ME SOMEONE TO HAVE A CRUSH ON.
29- Last time u had your heart broken: never had my heart broken. my heart is whole.
30- Last time u in love deeply: never been in love whyyyyyyyy.
31- Last food eaten: dinner. rasam rice, vegetables, etc.
32- Last drink: water.
33- Last things u bought: movie ticket yesterday.
34- Last CD bought: don't remember! it's been ages since i bought a cd, scandalous!
35- Last time u rent a VCD/DVD: i helped my brother rent some stuff a couple of weeks ago.
36- Last time u bought a VCD/DVD: sometime in july, bought Hero and Million Dollar Baby
37- Last hp used: nokia 6170
38- Last photo taken for yourself: took a photo of my brother blowing out a candle on his birthday at The Melt
39- Last annoy: i was annoyed a little while ago over an sms. well, more tired than annoyed i suppose.
40- Last word u said: i can't remember. i've been sitting alone in my room for the last two hours, haven't been talking out loud or atleast if i have i haven't noticed.
41- Last thing u touched: before the keyboard, my phone.
42- Last time u got angry: i am Zen. never angry.
43- Last relation ended: :( no relations to end!
44- Last boyfriend/girlfriend: :( i have no love life.
45- Last person u go out with: was out with kelly, claud, nasty yesterday.
46- Last time u break a glass: the last time i remember breaking a glass is at SICC 5 years ago on daph's birthday.
47- Last time u make love: never :(
48- Last time u brush your teeth: this morning.
49- Last mall u went: pacific plaza
50- Last time u trip n fall: the last time i remember was the first week of school this year, walking towards nasty near the council room. but i'm sure i've tripped since then, i'm clumsy enough to have tripped plenty of times in a year.
51- Last person u miss: yesterday i was missing nasty.
52- Last person u hate: I AM ZEN REMEMBER.
53- Last person u in love with: i have never been in love. i have a heart of STONE.
54- Last time went oversea: june
55- Last country u went: tioman. malaysia.
56- Last time u get your pay: i only get allowance. ie transfer payments. which isn't really pay.
57- Last time u dropped into e toilet bowl: HAHAHAHAHAAA wtf i'm not that small! ok i'm happy now, that question made me laugh a lot.
58- Last word u type: lot.
59- Last time u felt irritated: ugh, the sms! i'm getting v irritated by this quiz okayyy.
60- Last time u woo a boy: hahahahaa am skipping this.
61- Last email u received: can't remember. the oxford one maybe. but that wasn't the only email i received then so it may not have been the last.
62- Last email u sent: the one where i semi-scolded sowden
63- Last person wrote a testimonial for u: oh this afternoon i read a very nice peer evaluation soph wrote for me at the beginning of the year! but considering my oxford app's just gone in batchelor must've been the last to write me a testimonial. unless this means the friendster sort of testimonial in which case i cannot remember, friendster keeps sending me emails to tell me to look at their new and improved site for which they've take all my suggestions but i haven't made any suggestions or looked at the site in about a year.
64- Last person u wrote a testimonial for: can't remember. i think i wrote a peer evaluation for soph.
65- Last surprise: can't remember
66- Last u went hiking: uh. last hike i remember was last year in england. there was also that time my dad dragged me to bukit timah nature reserve, but i suspect that was before june last year. am not a hiking sort of person. ask anybody who was in obs with me hahahaha.
67- Last time u failed your test: the last time i failed properly was in promos :) but i'm quite sure i've had failing essays this year, just haven't failed a subject completely, fortunately.
68- Last time u went on Mars: just yesterday, it was fabulous
69- Last time u went a plane: last december
70- Last time u smoke: smoking is Bad. i don't smoke.
71- Last time u drink: few weeks ago.
72- Last time u take drug illegally: drugs also Bad. they lose kate moss h&m contract. i don't do drugs.
73- Last time u sang: while i was vacuuming/clearing stacks of paper. i sing a lot when i'm alone. i hope i don't start singing when i have roomates and stuff in university. the one reason i love my family is that they don't snigger when i start opera-ing in the middle of studying econs and stuff. don't get too disturbed by the thought. it's indian-style opera, ie carnatic music, which i've taken classes in for many years and therefore sound decent at. my dad even tells me he should record it and make an album, i might win awards. and my mom finds it funny that i never listen to carnatic music but when i start singing randomly it's always carnatic music, particularly when i'm studying.

ok now i go to clear stacks of paper. ain't it a lovely life.

i have lots of fashiony pictures to put up but i'm lazy. tomorrow!