Just spent the evening at Daph's again.. her extended family's weird but nice. And Joe's superstrange but also nice. He comes off really poser and obnoxious and actually he kinda is, and I'm still wondering if he's taking the piss at the world or if he's really like that. He was wearing the upside-down cross because he's anti-Christ or something and Daph's mum tried to convince him to take it off.. I think she was pretty damn upset by it. I wonder if that's another one of his anti-establishment poser statements, since the church is the easiest and most typical establishment for such types to take hits at. And he's anti-consumerism, and seems pretty much the angsty artist but he laughs at the concept. He's a confusing type. But he's pretty nice to talk to and he saved me when Daph disappeared. Which was several times. She was taken hostage by relatives, then she just disappeared. I have decided that she is one of the strangest people I know. One of those people whom you can know for years, and it still confounds you to figure out what the hell she's thinking. Atleast it hit me a while ago that she's really shy, which is something that is hardly apparent when you first meet her. And it took me more than three years to realise that. Yes, Daph, you confuse me much. Her cousin Stella says weird things. I think she thinks we're gay or something.

I told Daph last night that I can't decide if I'll miss her.. but now I've decided that I will. I think what I said yesterday sort of meant that it hasn't really sunk in that she's going to go.. actually I was thinking about it after I spoke to her last night and I had a more sensible and eloquent explanation in my head. But it doesn't matter, because I've realised that especially since I've been spending so much time with her the past few days, I am definitely gonna miss her like hell. It's weird, it'll probably feel empty or something. Maybe it'll be like being on holiday. But I don't think I missed them as much when I was in India.. but now I miss Chit when I have something to tell her and she's the only person I can talk to about it cos it's about Alias or it's about something only she would understand, and she's not here and there's no way I can contact her. Maybe it'll be the same with Daph.

Geez I feel all melancholy and shit. I'm going to go watch Love Actually now. The download's complete, and it's completely complete because it's the uncensored version which some kind person taped in the cinema and uploaded as a pretty good quality version. And it doesn't have the usual features of theatre videos, like shaking hands and dropped videocams and loud laughter. Atleast the bits I watched were fine. So Martin Freeman being extremely cute! Uncensored. Yay! Will cheer up.