oh i am touched at the number of people who've offered comfort upon reading the last post. there's nothing like feeling loved and cared for. thank you.

anyway i'm better, my tummy's turning itself over and over, over getting results back tomorrow but i've come to terms with stuff anyway. it's my fault, i'll deal with it and next year better be better or there'd better some good cliffs to fling oneself off dramatically, somewhere in singapore. pulau ubin, perhaps. god i hate that place. anyway my sense of humour's back firmly in place and gahhh whatever i hate being depressed so i'm just going to make myself feel fine. get the results-receiving over with, mope a while longer, get back to life.

eugene & viv: i didn't like the fic! it was so girly-mush. rather unrealistic.

oh i realised today that gilmore girls has gotten really annoying. i mean, what is in their minds when they're writing scripts nowadays? there's no spirit, romance, the quirk is just stupid, and there's no chemistry, and even the grooming's going down the drain. lorelai and luke had terrible hair this last ep, and dean keeps forgetting to shave. geez. and pamie's right: the problem with rory is that she hasn't changed. in terms of character she hasn't changed, but in terms of what they're showing of her life it's totally different - they're not showing her obsessing about school and stuff anymore, but it's just her and that insufferable boyfriend of hers whom she's supposed to be sleeping with but when he tries to make out with her she ducks and talks to lane about that poor girl's love life. if zach could only get it together, it would be a welcome distraction from the failing romances among the other characters. luke and lorelai haven't kissed in three episodes or something. or no kisses that i noticed, which says a lot because if there were good kisses i would be the first to remember them and to have watched them over and over and over and memorised them.

do you know that in written in the stars, when lorelai goes "babette and miss patty?" three times on the phone to luke, the first two times it's the same clip? they just used it twice. i was bored enough yesterday while my entire family was out partying, to replay it over and over until i confirmed that her hand was in the same position and her eyes moved in the exact same way both times. sheesh.

you know i had a nightmare that purvis flunked me for lit and was really mad at me for writing such awful essays that he gave me 6 marks for my silas marner essay? and he was yelling at me and i was crying. terrible terrible nightmare. manifestation, obviously, at my unhappiness that lit S is but a broken fantasy.

anyway getting back to fun stuff - party season is a good time! my mom's navratri bash on friday was good fun, and she's got funky friends. one of them brought a box of AMAZING homemade chocolate chip cookies that i've been devouring in large quantities since yesterday. another one is apparently married, but goes around town dressed in coordinated outfits with her boyfriend. and both of them are easily older than 45. sssscandalous! another one is from a family that's worth 400 million dollars. and there are several with very cute kids. lots of little girls in pretty outfits. lucky little girls, because when i was a little girl my mom wasn't very fashion-forward whereas those little girls' mommies are mostly rather gorgeous. my mom's gotten much cooler over the years. i quite love being indian, it's so fun and the jewellery and saris are nothing short of gorgeous! i finally wore the diamond polki necklace that my mom bought by telling my dad that his darling daughter wanted it, and after that my mom always wore it although it looks better on me, and this was really the first time that i wore it for a party. indian jewellery is gorgeous but heavy.

and: halloween party next sunday at pandan valley bbq pit. my mom won't allow anyone into the house though, because on saturday she's having her diwali party and she refuses to have anyone invade the house for a while after that, so party's not upstairs and no cooking upstairs. cooking will have to be pre-done or just good old snacks. anyway halloween should be a candy feast! trick-or-treating in pandan valley is much fun, so we can just all go around and gather lots of candy, and then regroup at the bbq pits, feast on all the candy and fall into sugar comas. i will appoint people to be in charge of food, music and decor. and everyone's expected to wear a costume, duh. maybe i'll also put someone in charge of creating speedy invites. yay this should be fun.

also, lasalle theatre arts is doing a production of LYSISTRATA this thursday through saturday. it's for FREE! so we should go.

now i will go and ponder my halloween costume.